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blogspotlightWhen I wrote Men and Women Can Be Friends?  WTF, I never imagined in a million years that we would fall in love.  That’s right, Bec and I have fallen in love and since that post on March 30th we are now at the point that she is coming to visit me at the end of August!  Who could have imagined that a just sober homeless man, and a completely isolated adventure woman, could find love via their blogs?  Who could have imagined love could bloom and flourish between two lost souls 3,623 miles apart?

And what an amazing journey it has been with this woman.  Talk about the best friend I ever had.  Talk about the purest soul I ever knew.  Talk about the sexiest body, eyes, smile I’ve ever seen.  From the early days of flirting with her on her first in early December, through the days of following her incredible journey of self-discovery on Faces of Life, and straight into video talks every single evening, we have developed an incredibly deep and profound relationship.

She has been the only person who has ever seen me behind all of my portrayals.  She stood by me while I stripped away the layers and facades and finally showed her who I really was.  She stood by me and showed me how to be a friend.  She supported me through my recovery and never flinched when she learned every dark and dirty truth about me and my life.  She has never judged me.  She has never moved an inch from my side.  All she did was give me the room to finally be who I was supposed to be all along.  If you’ve never had yourself beaten, molested, isolated, tormented from yourself, then very little of what I am saying is going to make much sense to you.

At the same time I’d like to believe I helped her to come out of herself and see just how beautiful she really is.  I think I have been there for her during some difficult times and decisions.  She has been able to lean on me.  I am proud that ours is a relationship built on pure and genuine honesty and trust.  I know everything about her and she knows everything about me.  And I do mean everything.

We have shared over 136,000 texts, 275 hours on the phone, nearly 100 emails, 80 hours of video.  We have taken every relationship quiz known to the internet.  We have shared deeply passionate and loving experiences.  Oh, and we even played two games of Trouble, she one.  Games using just phones for reference are NOT as fun as they describe online.  All you have is words when you are 3,623 miles apart.  And believe me, you find out EVERYTHING about your partner and yourself in a hurry!

That all being said, she wrote a poem of love and longing the other day.  I have never posted one poem about her online.  I decided that the poetry I write for her is going to remain deeply personal and intimate.  Should she decide I should post something for her, only then will I do that.  However, I did give her an answer to her poem that was asking for many different forms of love and support.  I told her I would most definately share the poems; they might help someone else know the depths of love and support that two people who wish to be there for one another forever will go.

Read her poem first, and then VISIT MY RESPONSE HERE

 

Faces of Life

I need my new love
I need to not be used
I need someone to tell me that all is okay
I need my new love to promise me…..
When I fall,
Please pick me up
When I am unreasonable,
Please be my voice of reason
When past abuse takes me down,
Please love me anyway
When I question your love again,
Please just reassure me
When I again fight my make-believe enemy,
Please fight with me
When I want to die,
Please give me reason to live
When I look at my body in disgust,
Please touch me with passion
When I question my mind and soul,
Please tell me that I am good
When I deny your trust for reasons unknown,
Please understand it comes from dark feelings within
When I fight you on something that makes no sense,
Please just smile and hold me close
When…

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