Most people might look at my life and think “Wow, he must be miserable.” On the contrary, my life couldn’t be better!
Just a quick recap for folks who may be joining the regularly scheduled broadcast already in progress:
I’ve been an alcoholic for over 35 years. In May of 2016 I got sober; by going to jail. Currently, I reside at a VA inpatient treatment facility where I will be until mid-to-late-March.
I have the option of going anywhere in the country! That’s because my Probation Officer knows I am doing the right thing. She recently removed ALL obstacles to my being able to go anywhere I want to continue with my new life.
Although I am destitute, homeless, and without many friends or family, I am more rich than I have been in years! I no longer drink and live in chaos.
I no longer spend all my paycheck on boozing–and sometimes illicit drugs. I no longer have to worry if my co-workers and customers can smell booze on my breath.
I am no longer in a terribly abusive relationship. I am no longer filled with anxiety and dread. I am no longer hung over everyday, anxious to begin drinking again later on. I am no longer sad, worried, angry, frustrated. I am no longer in the grips of the legal system.
No, today I can actually use the words “I’m happy!” Wow! I can’t remember when I have used those two words to describe my state! Would I like to be out on my own doing my own thing? Of course I would.
However, today I have ACCEPTANCE in my life. I am learning to accept the things I cannot change. I am learning to accept life on life’s terms.
As a result, I am much more peaceful and contended than I have been in many, many years. Although there are many approaches to sobriety, for me there are two GOLDEN WORDS that have made all the difference as I transition through this recovery: ACCEPTANCE and GRATITUDE.
I can’t really describe what these two simple words have meant to me in this journey. They have made all the difference in the world.